Update: having spent a weekend away from each other, my precious boy and I had a long and painful talk on Monday, after which, we realised (should I claim full responsibility and say I) that we can't let go of each other this easily. So, we've decided to go it our own ways (separate bedrooms, separate bills, separate weekends, ...) , but playing each other's girlfriend/boyfriend on a regular basis, allowing us to indulge in nice, getting-to-know-each-other dates. My heart seems to be a little drained these days, but otherwise I'm awfully surprised at this turn of events- in a good way. If it weren't for my utter exhaustion, I'd be the most eager person in the world.
Kroe
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Strangely enough, I feel good. In control, again. A couple of things have helped me through these difficult days: Leasle & Liesbeth, a letter I wrote but never got round to sending to Dirk, my pals at work, this morning - the second morning after 'the talk'- when it dawned on me that, yes, we will be able to live under the same roof for some time, and then, the day at the uni (where I finally got round to reading up on some papers on DMT's White Hotel - it was there that I realised, that I've really, really, really given my studies a second chance, that is, as a truly committed student), the day at work (where I finally managed to feel confident & professional again, after a couple of increasingly shaky weeks), and now, there's a letter for me, all the way from Greece, from Maria, who doesn't know yet, but always manages to reach me at the right time anyway.
I truly am a blessed human being.
Anna
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