Epiphany - One way or another (Blondie)

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Just felt like sharing some good news today, 'coz I feel like a million bucks, really. I've done some more soul-searching - now also informed by my meeting with Cindy, yesterday - and I've come to the conclusion that, no, I am not in love with anyone else.

Honestly, guys, you have no idea how relieved I am at this new insight of mine. It's just that I needed to experience something like 'being in love with someone else', so as to be able to finally let go of something that was no longer working for me. Not all of me, anyway. And if there is one phrase which captures the phase I've entered, this most bizarre of years, 2007, surely it must be that of: embracing all of me. Ironically, I've had to emaciate in order to release - or, rather - start releasing 'all of me'. But, it seems, I'm getting there.

By all accounts, I should be absolutely exhausted (I've been up since 7 am, and I've had an unusally long day at the office), and yet, for the first time in weeks, I'm not.

I'm sooooo looking forward to next week, when I'll start doing some real me-things, like: attending some lectures at the uni, attending a theatre festival, going out with a host of friends in Leuven, ... And the following weekend, I get to celebrate Womanhood (workshops, lectures, party, ...) at 'de Vooruit' - with Liesbeth (it's some kind of women's day on 11/11, apparently). Really, it's a pity you can't be here, Leasle. It's just the sort of thing we'd do together, isn't it? You'd love Liesbeth too, I'm sure.

Anyway, peace is within reach again. It seems, it was out there, all along: within me. All I required was the patience to weather the storm of my manic nervousness, which was only natural considering the newness of everything.

I leave you with Joni Mitchell's words: well something's lost, but something's gained/by living every day

Can't get myself to agree with the entire song's message, just now, but those two lines ring very, very true to me.


All alive -in a good way,

Anna